It is difficult for me to manifest in words the turbulent sea of emotions I feel at this moment. My mind is moving at the speed of light yet I just sit here staring at the world I have surrounded myself withcan this truly be real. Who am I? I am a stranger to myself. I look in the mirror and see two different people; two people who have never met yet are connected to one another with a bond that can be only described as destructive. Can one of these people function without the other? As much as I try I cannot believe so, and I consider now that I am locked into a path of certain pain and heartache. What scares me more is that I accept what lay before me and to some extent thrive upon the elated high of which It has shown me. The day may come where I wish to leave this world in some blaze of glory, but in truth I feel that that day may come before I have fully realized my purpose on this earth. Who am I?... I am a monster and a savior, I am an angle and a demon, I am fighter and a coward,I am, I am and I cannot change.